Roll Out

So by fourth period, one student walked out, one was sent out and another got a re feral. I think I lack some very important classroom management skills.
I want to be a good teacher. Really I do. I just don't know how. I don't know what I'm supposed to do when a male student is yelling to a female student that he is going to punch her in her fucking face. I teacher at a suburban/rural high school. I should know how to prevent this situation from happening. What have I done wrong?
I look like a smack up in administration, I'm sure. I know they don't want to deal with my constant problems. So many of these ass holes in class are failing right now and have no way to pass for the year, so it is getting worse.

I was homeschooled. I went to college young, graduated with a liberal arts degree and waited tables for years because I didn't know what to do with my life.
Then I started teaching.
The first high school class I ever attened was the one I taught.
I did not know what made a good teacher because I never had a high school teacher. But I'm learning what makes for good teaching.

Why I'm Here

One of the things that "they" tell teachers in endless meetings, workshops and professional development conferences is the need to reflect on what you are doing. I think the need is more about the need to rant than anything.
I have not figured out who the "they" is that sends down incessant proclamations about what I need to do, but I am new at bureaucracy. Maybe I will find out.
I guess this blog is a way to do as they say. It is a chance to reflect. Too bad there isn't an incentive program that covers this.
I think it is more likely that this will serve as a place for me to come to some sort of understanding of what public education is, or what it is supposed to be.